We're Home

"Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again, and nothing will take away your joy." John 16:22

Thank you, from the bottom of our hearts, for all of your kind comments, e-mails, cards, and prayers. Some brought smiles to our faces, and some brought tears to our eyes, but each one was much appreciated and helped us get through this past week. Our doctor's appointment today confirmed that our baby is with God. I have not officially had the miscarriage yet, and we are still a little up in the air about whether or not to do a D&C. We'll make that decision over the next few days/weeks, but I might just let this topic rest after today. I'm a pretty open person, but I have no idea how many details from here on out people are even interested in or what is appropriate to share.

I am sure people are or will soon be wondering if we plan to get pregnant again soon. The answer to that is not immediately. We need some time to cherish this special baby that we just lost. We might be in more of a hurry if we had planned this pregnancy to begin with, but for now we are content to enjoy the precious little girl we have. That being said, we definitely do want more children, sooner rather than later. So, we have some mixed emotions about this right now, and we'll see what happens over the next year or two. We welcome your prayers that God will bless us with another special child, whenever that time is right.

Finally, we are doing OK. It's been an unbelievably rough week (I have some beach stories that are so sad, they're funny to share with you at a later date). We have good days and bad days, and I imagine that is the way our life will be for a while. We were both nervous that we would be crushed all over again today at the doctor's office and have to start all over with the grief process - kind of like when you take a negative pregnancy test, but don't really believe it until your cycle starts over again. (Is that just me??) But we mostly felt relief that God gave us a clear picture of what is going on, and if a D&C becomes medically necessary, we can have that procedure done without any guilt or "what ifs?" Additionally, we are much more able to talk to people than we were a few days ago, so give us a call if you want! I'm actively looking for play dates and dinner dates :)

I'm going to wrap up this post with a beautiful poem my sister-in-law sent me:

The Weaver

My life is but a weaving between my Lord and me
I cannot choose the colors; He worketh steadily
Oft times He weaveth sorrow, and I, in foolish pride
Forget he sees the upper, and I, the underside.

Not 'til the loom is silent and shuttles cease to fly
Shall God unroll the canvas and explain the reason why.
The dark threads are as needful in the weaver's skillful hand.
As the threads of gold and silver in the pattern He has planned.

He knows, He loves, He cares; Nothing this truth can dim
He gives His very best to those who leave the choice with Him.

-Author Unknown

I'm also posting a link to a song, especially for our Teeny Bear. Click on it and turn your speakers up if you want to listen to it. Once you click the link, the song should start on its own. Give it a minute or two to load, and don't click anything else, even if it prompts you to.

http://www.imeem.com/people/rmPkBn/music/EIm7F2uO/watermark_glory_baby/