"Be still, and know that I am God." Psalm46:10
Hello everyone. We learned some terrible news yesterday; it does not appear that we will get to meet our new baby on this side of heaven. We went to our first doctor's appointment, fully anticipating the joy of hearing the heartbeat and finalizing our due date. However, the ultrasound did not show a heartbeat, and our doctor said that measurements and blood tests indicate that our baby stopped growing at around 5 weeks.
We are shocked and dumbfounded. For a change, I have not been worried at all about this pregnancy, and enjoyed every moment of it, excitedly telling everyone I knew. I'm glad that I did not spend what little time I had with my baby living in fear. But we are heartbroken right now, and spending time at the beach, regrouping as a family.
We were given 2 options - schedule a D&C or wait and let nature take it's course. While we have gone back and forth several times on what the right thing for us to do is, our plan right now is to have confirmatory blood testing and a sonogram on Monday, and see what happens from there. We are clinging to our faith, right now, a little confused about why God would bless us with such a sweet surprise, if it wasn't ours to keep. But we know that we serve a loving God, who wants good things for us even when bad things happen.
We also know that we serve a loving God who performs miracles, even in this day and age, and we welcome your prayers for this. We know it is possible, and would love nothing more than to be shocked and dumbfounded in a happy way on Monday. But we also believe our doctor when he says there is a 99% chance that we will not get to welcome our Teeny Bear into this world as we planned, and we are not clinging to much hope that a miracle is what is in God's plan for us right now.
We are grateful to have wonderful, supportive, friends and family, a much-trusted doctor who shares our values, and a loving God, whom we have handed this whole situation over to. Please pray for our family, as this is a difficult time for us as we seek clarity. As much as I love having clear answers, I don't think this situation is meant for me to understand. Luckily, I don't have to understand to believe that God loves our family and loves our little baby.
The best place for you to leave your thoughts for us is here in the comment section. If you don't have a Google account, simply click the small circle next to "anonymous" right under the box that you write your actual comment in. We have our cell phones with us, but have so far not been up to talking much. I'll update this site as I am able to, as the next few days and weeks unfold. Thank you for your prayers and support.
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18
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We are very sorry to hear your news. We have been praying for you guys and have added you to our prayer list at church. Continue to draw strength from friends, family, and the God we serve!!! Let us know if there is anything we can do in the meantime!
Jess and Cline, I'm so sorry. Not really anything else to say. All of you will be in our prayers. May God's peace and miraculous healing (in whatever form God deems best) surround you today and in the coming days. Love, Megan
We miscarried last Thanksgiving, so I understand how hard this is. I remember wanting to hear about other people and their struggles, so I'll share the link to what I wrote the night I got home from my D&C: http://theiveyleague.com/2007/11/22/sad-news/ . I felt hollow for a while, but keeping my focus on the 2 kiddos in front of me helped a lot. I'm sorry you guys have to go through this. Please call or email me if you need to talk. You'll be in our prayers. Much love...the Ivey crew
I am so sorry for your loss. From someone whom has had two miscarriages; I know that there is nothing that I could say to help with the pain of losing an unborn child. If you need to talk, please call me. I feel heartbroken reading your post. The thing that helped me the most during those difficult times was to look at my daughter's face and know that no matter what the future held I was a mother now and that was such a blessing. I can't say the pain will go away, but time does heal your heart just a little. Your family will be in our prayers.
So sorry to hear that news:(
We will pray for your family. God IS in control!!
Read Habbakuk 3:17-19
love ya
stacie
Jessica & Cline,
I was so sad to hear about your loss...I am praying for you guys & your family that God may provide the clarity that you need and the strength to endure...Much love to both of you.
Leah Catherine
Jessica and Cline,
We are so sorry to hear the news. I can only imagine what you are going through. Sometimes it can be so hard to understand God's ways. I know you may not want to talk about it, but we are here if you need a shoulder to lean on. You are in our thoughts and prayers.
wow...I'm so sorry Jessica...please let us know if you need anything, meet for lunch or something, whatever. we miss y'all already- hug Cline and Christa for us (and have them hug you ;)). We'll be praying for you all- I heard on the radio today a bible verse- (i can't quote it exactly- need some work on that ;)) but it talked about how God isn't punishing us or targeting us- rather He chooses us to be with Him and (another verse) all things work for good for those who are the called according to His purpose. I know God is conveying through you that life is such a gift...miraculously given and so fragile...yet so strong all at the same time...you were so happily welcoming it, childlike in your faith in God and your trust that it was part of His plan so be it. What beautiful faith you have- thank you for sharing that with us. We love you all!
Jessica...I am sorry for the pain that you are so deeply feeling right now. Your faith in our righteous Lord is very apparent. He understands this and His perfect hands are cradling your teeny bear. I think it says so much about the strength of your family that you chose to go away together to cry, regroup, pray and void out other distractions. I will pray that the Lord will reveal Himself to you in a way that brings you peace.
In prayer,
Amy
I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. Unfortunately I can relate to you too. I miscarried between Ronnie & Victoria in 1996 at 5 1/2 weeks. It was an emotional rollercoaster for 2 weeks: being shocked of the news, frantically wondering how we were going to work things out financially, then deciding that things would be okay & accepting the pregnancy & being happy & excited and then to have it all taken away so quickly. I got the whole scientific speech & about it being nature's way....medically it made sense but that didn't help my feelings one bit. I too felt hollow, empty, lost and very sad. It's alot at one time. Please know that this is not your fault. Words will not help alot right now but Christa's smiling face & warm hugs will. And she will be a great big sister one day.
We love you.
Margaret Anne
i am so sad to hear the news. please know my prayers are with you now. this just happened to my sister... i can only say, i have no words. ~meg
You are defnitely in our prayers. Remember that our God is in control and holds everything in His hands including this little life.
Jessica and Cline,
My heart is broke for all of you!
Our prayers are with you, but we know that God is in control of everything even when we do not like the outcome. He will get you through this. We love you both and are praying for the peace of God to descend on you both that will carry you through this. Cheri and John
So sorry to hear this sad news. We went through this last fall, and I know y'all are hurting. Know that you are in our prayers.
Jess, We just got back and I just read the news. I am so sorry for you guys. You are in my prayers and I'm adding you to the prayer list at work. I love you and if you need anything please let me know.
Cline and Jessica, I am so sorry to hear this news. We will pray for your family as always. It is easy to tell that God is with you as you go through this because your words in that post show so much strength, wisdom and faith!
I love you!
N
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